Confessions

I know I’m going to be alone on this but I don’t care. I have had ENOUGH.

Leave Demi Lovato alone. Seriously. This isn’t me supporting them or saying they’ve done nothing wrong ever. This is me saying treat them like a human being for once. I’ve had enough of them being the target or the world’s punching bag. You know what you can do if you don’t like something Demi said or did? You can educate them NICELY on why you think it was wrong OR (and pay extra attention here) you can ignore them!!! Omggg, what a revolutionary idea!!!!1!1111! Yeah, I should take my own advice, too, because here I am letting a bunch of damn bullies on the worthless internet make me angry. I can’t handle the internet anymore. I can’t handle how disgusting most people on it are. I can’t handle how two-faced people are. How manipulative people are. I truly do hope that one day I can cut that tie and live an internet free life. At least mostly. I would like to keep up with the artists I DO like and be able to talk to the grand total of 3 friends I have but that is IT. I’m f**king tired of the whiplash from people saying they’re a safe place for those struggling with mental health and saying we all need to be kind to everyone because we don’t know what they’re going through to those same people absolutely dogging someone they do not know!!! Like, good grief, probably the same gross people that say “Well, it could be worse!” and just absolutely do not listen to you or validate your feelings. How is it ANYONE’S place to question whether or not Demi Lovato is truly non-binary? Oh my god, guess what?! You don’t have to listen or watch them “use” the LGBTQ+ community!!! You don’t have to use their preferred pronouns if you...NEVER SPEAK ABOUT THEM!!! These gross a** people calling them it/thing. Please go to hell. It is not that f**king hard to be f**king civil towards someone. And, no, I’m not being too civil myself right now but I’m at my breaking point. People are f**king insane on the internet. Heartless, manipulative, sociopathic, and/or psychopathic idiots. For f**king using Demi’s overdose to say sh*t like “Those drugs messed with her brain” or “She must be doing drugs again”. I’m sorry, how is any of that funny? How is someone ALMOST DYING funny? And you know what? If they had died, these disgusting people would have said things like “I wish I could have helped Demi. I miss them. This is terrible.” But not only are they completely disrespecting Demi by not using they/them pronouns, they are mocking a truly dark and traumatic point in Demi’s life. The whole world gave them an outpouring of love when the news broke but now it’s “lol you messed yourself up”. Man I don’t f**king care if you think they’re a bad singer and a bad person, do. Not. F**king. Joke. About. Their. Overdose. It’s freaking disturbing. Disturbing the things people find “funny” these days. And as far as I can tell, Demi was only saying to not comment on people’s bodies that have struggled with an ED or are still struggling with one and...how were they wrong? WHY ARE WE SO OBSESSED WITH HOW EVERYONE’S BODIES LOOK? Ridiculous the people that attacked Demi because they wanted those compliments after losing/gaining weight because they worked hard. And, yes, they do deserve those compliments but when someone vocalizes that those compliments are triggering for them, stop giving them. No, Demi shouldn’t have spoken for everyone and they should have only spoken for their self. That’s literally the only thing I see they did wrong. Demi says it’s hurtful to hear those compliments and comments about their body. Respect that. Were people calling them beautiful/hot/sexy when they were overweight? No? Oh, yeah, I forgot! ‘Cause y’all only find skinny people beautiful/hot/sexy! Heaven forbid we see someone with a big stomach covered in stretch marks, cellulite all over their thighs and butt, and drooping skin on their arms and call them beautiful. Then it’s “Ew, don’t glorify overweight/obese people. They need help.” Yes, I do quite understand that it’s unhealthy to be obese but you’re the gross one for treating them as if they’re unworthy of love and respect because of their size. You can also go to hell. I don’t believe I struggle with an ED but hell it was hurtful to me for an old friend from middle school to ask me if I had lost weight when I posted a selfie a few years ago. Is that all people see when they look at me? My big stomach? My jiggling thighs that have stretch marks, a little bit of cellulite, and spider veins (or whatever they are)? My flabby arms when I raise them up? The double chin I’m starting to get? I have never felt beautiful. Have I ever even been told I’m beautiful? I don’t know. Oh but let me drop 20, 30 pounds and get toned and suddenly everyone will be like “YESSSS GIRL! GORGEOUS!” because apparently I can’t be gorgeous now even with all of those things I mentioned. So Demi saying they are more than how their body physically looks was nice for me to hear. But I guess they p*ssed off the body shamers and they had to come for Demi like *they* were the right ones. Just leave the poor person alone. Even if half the things they do are for attention, simply ignoring them will most likely push them out of the spotlight. So many better things you could be doing. Reading a book, playing your favorite video game, cleaning up your room, focusing on the celebrities you DO like, spending time with friends, playing with your pet, literally just about anything would be better than bullying someone you do not know.

And, no, I don’t care that it’s not “worth it” to get this upset over something that “doesn’t matter” because it does matter to me. I don’t care if it’s “weird” to focus on celebrities this much when it’s literally their job to capture my attention. I just try my best to treat them like a human being unlike the heartless a**h*les on the internet. And, yes, I am well aware I could take my own advice and ignore these people or actually delete social media from my life. This has been building up for months. Every damn day I see some jerk bully someone else because they posted something they didn’t find funny (that was truly meant to be funny) or they disagreed with them on something. Like why? Why are you people like this? At least I think I know what to talk to my therapist about the next time I see her. I’ll probably simply say “I can’t handle the internet.” and then just vent from there and also feel stupid for crying.