|
Post by TaylorSwiftFan on Sept 6, 2019 19:59:54 GMT -5
I'm a hoarder and I seem to attach meaning to everything which makes me want to keep it, but I'm getting a little better at it I think...
|
|
Roman
Next Level Swiftie
50%
Posts: 5,833
|
Post by Roman on Sept 7, 2019 0:35:09 GMT -5
I'm a hoarder and I seem to attach meaning to everything which makes me want to keep it, but I'm getting a little better at it I think... I feel attached to things I own, because I carefully picked them out. But I try not to collect too much stuff. Regularly I clean up and get rid of stuff. It’s hard at first, but it works if you throw it out and don’t look back. It’s a rewarding feeling to have things cleaned up.
|
|
|
Post by SomeFearlessChick on Oct 5, 2019 8:36:02 GMT -5
I may have just cried while listening to Taylor's acoustic 'The Archer'. Just like all those years ago when 'I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all' completely winded me from emotional resemblance. I've been doing a lot of looking in the mirror and asking myself, "Is this a good person?" "Does this person deserve to be here? If so, what exactly are they supposed to be doing? Life is so short and what if I'm wasting all my time?" type of thing. Knowing that one of the most successful people alive has felt the same way is more comforting than words from myself or those around me.
|
|
Roman
Next Level Swiftie
50%
Posts: 5,833
|
Post by Roman on Oct 7, 2019 1:04:56 GMT -5
Recently I've been dodging watching/reading the news. It actually takes away a lot of unnecessary emotions. I was so done with all the terrible propaganda. News is not simply a source of information anymore, it has become an instrument to play on people's emotions and manipulate them into going on a rage for others people's cause.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Oct 14, 2019 21:36:47 GMT -5
Vague posts are annoying, I know, I'M SORRY, but I kind of sort of want to get this off my chest ajghsfjdjgdj
There's a secret that's most likely going to die with me. I came close to telling one person a few months ago but I chickened out. I don't even feel brave enough to tell one of my sisters and I talk to her about almost everything. So if I ever tell anyone, I am extremely comfortable and trusting of them.
|
|
|
Post by TaylorSwiftFan on Oct 14, 2019 23:42:34 GMT -5
I confess I think I've trained myself to treat my "sister" like a stranger. It's gotten better with me pushing her away and considering her as a stranger. It lets me avoid having or risking getting feelings of disappointment or hurt when she's obnoxious and rude to me like she always is whenever I'm in the same room/city as her. She won't make the effort so I sure as hell won't make an effort either. I tried making an effort sort of before but not anymore. She's a stranger.
|
|
Roman
Next Level Swiftie
50%
Posts: 5,833
|
Post by Roman on Oct 23, 2019 14:10:27 GMT -5
Sometimes my life is so sad, others would cry for me for weeks or they would be repulsed by the amount of patheticness...
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Nov 30, 2019 21:31:05 GMT -5
It's finally time I admit to myself that I need help. I need to see a therapist. I can't keep carrying on this way and hurting myself and everyone around me. Literally no one knows exactly how bad I feel about myself. I think it's gotten worse in the past 24 hours alone. I was journaling a bit before coming on here and, for the first time, I put something into writing that I have been scared to because now it's true that I feel that way. It's hard to believe that, at one point, I could say that I liked myself. Whoever I was 5, 10 years ago doesn't even feel like me anymore. I don't feel like me anymore. But I don't want to stay this way. I want help. Just scared and embarrassed to admit this to my family.
|
|
Roman
Next Level Swiftie
50%
Posts: 5,833
|
Post by Roman on Dec 1, 2019 3:08:44 GMT -5
It's finally time I admit to myself that I need help. I need to see a therapist. I can't keep carrying on this way and hurting myself and everyone around me. Literally no one knows exactly how bad I feel about myself. I think it's gotten worse in the past 24 hours alone. I was journaling a bit before coming on here and, for the first time, I put something into writing that I have been scared to because now it's true that I feel that way. It's hard to believe that, at one point, I could say that I liked myself. Whoever I was 5, 10 years ago doesn't even feel like me anymore. I don't feel like me anymore. But I don't want to stay this way. I want help. Just scared and embarrassed to admit this to my family. It sounds a bit strange, but I’m really happy about this. It’s such an important step to realize this and that you want to change it. I understand that it all feels scary, especially the opening up to your family part. But you can do this. They should be proud of you and support you. And obviously you always have your NTC family right behind you!
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Dec 4, 2019 17:56:40 GMT -5
This is just some weird quirk of mine but oh my god I can't stand when my hair touches my neck while I'm eating or after I'm done. I die a little on the inside when I'm leaving a restaurant because I know the wind is going to blow my hair and it's going to touch my neck. Can't stand to be touched after I eat, either, but I think that's mostly because whoever's touching me just ate, too, and their hands might not be clean. Which is another thing, I almost always have to wash my hands after I eat. A napkin just isn't enough. I cringe, too, when someone touches me after I've seen them eating something even if I haven't. If it wouldn't be weird, I'd probably always eat with a fork and a knife.
|
|
Roman
Next Level Swiftie
50%
Posts: 5,833
|
Post by Roman on Dec 14, 2019 8:05:09 GMT -5
I secretly like it when people have neurotic tendencies.
|
|
|
Post by SomeFearlessChick on Jan 11, 2020 1:55:30 GMT -5
No offence but heavily disappointed Taylor hasn't said a peep about the bushfires. Australia has supported her career (very $$ well) since the Fearless era. And yet, radio silence.
|
|
Roman
Next Level Swiftie
50%
Posts: 5,833
|
Post by Roman on Jan 11, 2020 3:08:10 GMT -5
I still have my Christmas tree up. I like the lights at night during these dark times of the year.
|
|
|
Post by TaylorSwiftFan on Jan 11, 2020 18:30:16 GMT -5
No offence but heavily disappointed Taylor hasn't said a peep about the bushfires. Australia has supported her career (very $$ well) since the Fearless era. And yet, radio silence. Yep, me too. I hope she secretly donated at least some money. I laughed when the idiot Kardashians donated a bit of money. Like that's going to make me think any better of them. Throwing money at something once in a while doesn't make you a good person, after all the bad things you've done.
|
|
|
Post by TaylorSwiftFan on Jan 11, 2020 18:31:11 GMT -5
I still have my Christmas tree up. I like the lights at night during these dark times of the year. If it was my choice, I think I'd leave the tree up longer into January too, but my mom always wants it down early into January. :/ But part of me wanted to take it down because looking at it would make me sad how Christmas is over and gone by. It's better it's not up so I don't think about it and focus on other things. But I have some strings of lights that are actually Christmas lights that I want to put up in my room. They had them on sale after Christmas. Some of them are cool. I looked at the lights in two different stores here. There's one or two pairs that are multicoloured ones so they would be like the lights on a Christmas tree.
|
|