it was the end of a decade...

I have had a rollercoaster of a decade.

It started out when I was only 13. I was in a really dark place for pretty much the entirety of 2010-2015 dealing with a lot of dark stuff that happened earlier in my life until I finally got help in 2015 and saw a counsellor. 2015-2018 were also rough, but I was able to see the good in things a lot more. 2019 has been the best year of my life easily. I've never been as happy as I have been this past year.
To look back on it all, this decade I've done my GCSEs and A levels and managed to pass them all. I got into university, moved to a new city, got my first full time job, and I should graduate in the next six months with straight Bs which I'm really happy with. I've travelled and solo travelled, visiting 16 countries (most of those in the last two years alone). I've seen Taylor 4 times and got to travel all the way to America to see her in a private show. I've had god knows how many part time jobs and hated every single one of them.

So much amazing stuff has happened to me this decade and I cannot WAIT to see what the 20s will bring to me as I enter 'adult life'. I'm hoping to graduate with my masters and maybe a PhD, although that one might wait for a while. I'll hopefully get a job in either museum education, educational quality assurance, or working for an exam board since I love education but I'm not sure I want to teach. I'll be turning 30 this decade and I want to hit 30 countries visited before then. I'd love to have lived abroad at some point, but again that might have to wait a while longer since I'll be prioritising my education. Hopefully I might find a partner to settle down with, although that's a bit of a pipe dream. I'd mostly like to maintain the level of happiness and love I've felt in my life this year so that I can make the next decade even better than this last one.

This thread and posting this makes me feel emotional. It's hard to believe the whole decade and the year is over. Every year feels like it goes quicker than the last unfortunately. It's hard to believe how fast this decade went too. It's the first decade where I was more fully aware and not a young kid who couldn't remember much.

It's hard to think of everything that happened in the past decade, but I "graduated" from elementary/middle school and I graduated from high school, which was a big thing for me. I really enjoyed high school and I hated getting older and eventually graduating. I would go back if I could to simpler times. And I went straight into university after high school, but I won't graduate until the first year into the next decade, so it just missed being included in this decade. All in all I think this decade has been good and there have been a lot of highs, but also lows. I've had a lot of anxiety and some depression I think. Sometimes I didn't think I could get through it and I couldn't think about anything else. But I think I've learned a little bit how to deal with it. But I still have a long way to go. I will always have anxiety and it's hard to deal with. I've also lost many pets/animals this past decade which was hard but I know they're in a better place and I hope they're still with us in spirit because I really miss them all. I also lost one of my grandmas this past decade. And an aunt. This decade I've gone to lots of concerts, which I'm thankful for. In this decade I've seen Taylor six times in person and in concert (one was on a red carpet), One Direction once, Harry Styles once, Kacey Musgraves twice, Rascal Flatts once, Dierks Bentley once, Justin Timberlake once, Hedley once, Theresa Caputo (a psychic my mom likes) three times, etc.. I've gone on a few trips by airplane - Las Vegas in 2014, Vancouver in 2016, and Toronto in 2018 (two times). I think I'm proud of myself in a way to have gotten through this decade. I've never been suicidal and tried to kill myself but of course I've thought about it before with all of the anxiety and problems I have. And it's hard to sometimes think about the future and think you'll get through things. So it's an accomplishment to get through a whole decade of life I guess. But this decade has been disappointing in a way because I've sort of had friends (in real life) when I was younger but I've been shy and gotten worse in a way with talking to people so I don't have many friends. I don't have many people in my life. Just my parents.

It's scary for me to think about the next decade. I will graduate with my first degree from university next year (2020). I don't know how it went by so fast. It went faster than high school, which is really hard to comprehend because it felt like it went really fast. I have no idea what will happen after graduating from university next spring, and I don't know if I'd do another short university degree or go straight into working. But that gives me a lot of stress because I don't know if I'd be offered a full time job right away. It would make it really easy if the company I've worked for in the past two summers and this past fall would offer me a full time permanent job, but I don't know if that will happen. My mom talked to a psychic person on a video chat earlier this year and I think the woman said she sees it happening. But they aren't always right. They said I'd buy a condo or something in a few years and be with someone (in a relationship) in two years (which is a joke!). Like I've posted MANY times before, I hate how fast time goes by. Change is hard. Especially when time goes by fast. I hate getting older and years going by, so it's difficult to go from a year to another year and from a decade to another decade. But I hope this decade is somewhat hopeful. I WISH to see tours next year which require travel by airplane and I wish I'd be lucky enough to be able to see them all somehow. I wish my family could win the lottery or some money at all so that my parents wouldn't have such a hard time. I worry about them and the future, and I worry about them because everyone gets older when time goes by. I wish next decade would be the time I'd FINALLY be lucky to finally meet Taylor but I've come to realize that won't happen. I hope the next decade will be lucky for me.

I forgot to list things like that (including getting a driver's license). I might do that.

The 2010 decade started well for me, including the birth of my third daughter in 2012.
Career wise, I’d already achieved membership of a professional accounting body in 2009, before going about obtaining Fellowship status in 2014.
Having worked in junior accounting roles for the entirety of my career, I finally moved into my current role as a Company Accountant in 2015.
The second half of the decade was dominated by a period of my life I can’t wait to forget about. Separation, divorce, only seeing my children 3 days per week. The unbelievable financial strain that all of that entails..
Joining TC and later NTC helped me in the process of moving on. Seeing Taylor Swift in concert on two occasions, in the 1989 and Reputation tours, also helped.
It also made me realise and cherish the importance of keeping up friendships, seeing my friends I’ve known since school on a regular basis.
I also joined a cycling club in 2016, which has been the best way of both keeping fit but also being able to forget about everything for a while.
The decade ended on a high point, when in April 2019 I purchased a house of my own. This was a massive relief, having spent over three years living in the former family home, which was jointly mortgaged with my toxic ex!

Hopes for the next decade?
That I continue to maintain good relationships with my daughters and that they all go some way to achieving their dreams.
That I continue to stay in the best physical shape, keeping fit and healthy.
That everyone close keeps their health and wellbeing.
Finally, maybe I will start to believe that it’s ok to let someone new into my life again, but then again, maybe not !

Ahhhhh I'm late, let's see, I ended the decade on a low note since I came down with the flu and really thought I might die so what would be the point in posting here XD
Anyway, I started the decade when I was seven and I hardly remember the beginning of it. I don't remember anything about going into the decade, like this year everyone is making a big deal about 2019 going into 2020, but I have no memory of 2009 going into 2010. Most of my life occurred in the 2010s, the biggest takeaways; I've met my friends through fandoms, becoming a swiftie led me to meet all of you, becoming a NASCAR fan led me to meet some nice people on Twitter that are my age and like the same things as me which is really cool, becoming a Joey fan is probably my favorite thing that happened this decade and all the things that came with that, liking movies and TV shows far too much led me to reading fanfiction which led me to writing it and writing other things, point being, I think that every choice made leads you to new choices to make and some of those can be bad but a lot of them are good. I finally learned how to play an instrument, started writing songs, I met my hero, I got my first pet and then a lot more after that, I've learned not to put quite so much pressure on myself, I met my best friend, I've learned to let a lot of things go and I'm working on the other things. I've shut toxic people out my life and decided that I maybe don't need my parent's approval to breathe. I've accepted I am what I am and found a way to express that personality openly without hating myself for it. I could list a lot of failures, but instead I'll try to see them as things I could improve and accomplish in the 20s. I really need to get my learner's license, I would like to go to a Taylor concert one day, I hope maybe one day I'll write the novel I've been planning on writing for half the decade AND I REALLY HOPE BY THE END OF THE DECADE MY DOG WILL BE HOUSEBROKEN XD.
I discovered a lot about myself and overcame a lot of obstacles, I'm absolutely terrified about the future but I'm hoping it'll surprise me and be a lot better than I plan on it being. For the past few years I've had this idea that I wouldn't make it to my 18th birthday, or some of the ones before it, and maybe I shouldn't count my chickens before they hatch but I've started to have the feeling that maybe I will and optimism technically never killed anyone.