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Post by sharonlovestaylor on Jun 5, 2022 22:27:54 GMT -5
I’m starting to notice bipolar tendencies in myself like today one minute I was all excited hanging out with my ministry and the next minute I’m all sad completely detached from everyone else. That does not mean your bipolar
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Post by JDMaleSwiftie on Jun 5, 2022 22:36:31 GMT -5
I’m starting to notice bipolar tendencies in myself like today one minute I was all excited hanging out with my ministry and the next minute I’m all sad completely detached from everyone else. That does not mean your bipolar No I’m not, but I do know I have BPD.
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Post by sharonlovestaylor on Jun 5, 2022 22:43:43 GMT -5
They said I had that but I don't. I have bipolar1. Trust me that's worse than BPD
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Post by JDMaleSwiftie on Jun 5, 2022 23:25:36 GMT -5
They said I had that but I don't. I have bipolar1. Trust me that's worse than BPD With all due respect I don’t think it’s beneficial to say one illness is worse then the other. That can be interpreted as minimizing another person’s illness. I don’t think it’s fair to say one disorder is worse then that disorder they’re all very difficult to deal with. As someone with BPD I can tell you it’s a living hell right now consistent mood swings, emotions are all over the place, very very low self esteem, unstable relationships, and some very intense emotions. That’s why it bothers me when people make statements like that because it’s a very difficult situation and I don’t think it’s beneficial to an individual’s recovery to minimize their situation.
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Post by sharonlovestaylor on Jun 6, 2022 0:01:11 GMT -5
They said I had that but I don't. I have bipolar1. Trust me that's worse than BPD With all due respect I don’t think it’s beneficial to say one illness is worse then the other. That can be interpreted as minimizing another person’s illness. I don’t think it’s fair to say one disorder is worse then that disorder they’re all very difficult to deal with. As someone with BPD I can tell you it’s a living hell right now consistent mood swings, emotions are all over the place, very very low self esteem, unstable relationships, and some very intense emotions. That’s why it bothers me when people make statements like that because it’s a very difficult situation and I don’t think it’s beneficial to an individual’s recovery to minimize their situation. Your right!! I sincerely apologize JD! I hope you feel better soon!
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Post by sharonlovestaylor on Jun 8, 2022 22:21:31 GMT -5
I just finished IOP Intensive Outpatient Program. I hated it and I am so happy to be done with it.
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Post by sharonlovestaylor on Jun 17, 2022 20:39:47 GMT -5
I'm getting better every day! I don't like the heat of summer or therapy but I'm dealing with it.
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Post by JDMaleSwiftie on Nov 2, 2022 12:08:27 GMT -5
With all due respect I don’t think it’s beneficial to say one illness is worse then the other. That can be interpreted as minimizing another person’s illness. I don’t think it’s fair to say one disorder is worse then that disorder they’re all very difficult to deal with. As someone with BPD I can tell you it’s a living hell right now consistent mood swings, emotions are all over the place, very very low self esteem, unstable relationships, and some very intense emotions. That’s why it bothers me when people make statements like that because it’s a very difficult situation and I don’t think it’s beneficial to an individual’s recovery to minimize their situation. Your right!! I sincerely apologize JD! I hope you feel better soon! I appreciate the apology and I apologize as well for coming off so harsh. That was around when I first got that diagnosis and definitely a lot has changed since then. One thing I will say that has helped me a little is Taylor’s song Anti-Hero from Midnights is so relatable. The lyrics from Anti-Hero that stood out most for myself is when she said “when my depression works the graveyard shift all the people I’ve ghosted stand in the room.” Also when Taylor says in the song “I’m the problem it’s me, everyone at tea time agrees.” I had no idea Taylor even struggled with depression, but I really appreciate her vulnerability and it’s important for those of us that struggle with these issues to be able to have the courage to talk about these very real issues. One other thing that stood out to me in Taylor’s music video for Anti Hero at one point there was an image of two different Taylors in the video one was in front of the weight scale weighing herself while the other was that negative voice in her head making her feel insecure about her weight. I really appreciate that because I struggle with insecurity issues about my weight and for her to convey that in her music is really amazing.
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Post by sharonlovestaylor on Nov 3, 2022 11:16:23 GMT -5
Your right!! I sincerely apologize JD! I hope you feel better soon! I appreciate the apology and I apologize as well for coming off so harsh. That was around when I first got that diagnosis and definitely a lot has changed since then. One thing I will say that has helped me a little is Taylor’s song Anti-Hero from Midnights is so relatable. The lyrics from Anti-Hero that stood out most for myself is when she said “when my depression works the graveyard shift all the people I’ve ghosted stand in the room.” Also when Taylor says in the song “I’m the problem it’s me, everyone at tea time agrees.” I had no idea Taylor even struggled with depression, but I really appreciate her vulnerability and it’s important for those of us that struggle with these issues to be able to have the courage to talk about these very real issues. One other thing that stood out to me in Taylor’s music video for Anti Hero at one point there was an image of two different Taylors in the video one was in front of the weight scale weighing herself while the other was that negative voice in her head making her feel insecure about her weight. I really appreciate that because I struggle with insecurity issues about my weight and for her to convey that in her music is really amazing. I love anti-hero too! I think a lot of people can relate to that song and music video. How have you been doing?
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Post by JDMaleSwiftie on Nov 3, 2022 21:36:04 GMT -5
I appreciate the apology and I apologize as well for coming off so harsh. That was around when I first got that diagnosis and definitely a lot has changed since then. One thing I will say that has helped me a little is Taylor’s song Anti-Hero from Midnights is so relatable. The lyrics from Anti-Hero that stood out most for myself is when she said “when my depression works the graveyard shift all the people I’ve ghosted stand in the room.” Also when Taylor says in the song “I’m the problem it’s me, everyone at tea time agrees.” I had no idea Taylor even struggled with depression, but I really appreciate her vulnerability and it’s important for those of us that struggle with these issues to be able to have the courage to talk about these very real issues. One other thing that stood out to me in Taylor’s music video for Anti Hero at one point there was an image of two different Taylors in the video one was in front of the weight scale weighing herself while the other was that negative voice in her head making her feel insecure about her weight. I really appreciate that because I struggle with insecurity issues about my weight and for her to convey that in her music is really amazing. I love anti-hero too! I think a lot of people can relate to that song and music video. How have you been doing? To be honest things have not been good at least not the last a couple of weeks. Appreciate you asking hope you’re doing well.
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Post by sharonlovestaylor on Nov 5, 2022 13:43:06 GMT -5
I love anti-hero too! I think a lot of people can relate to that song and music video. How have you been doing? To be honest things have not been good at least not the last a couple of weeks. Appreciate you asking hope you’re doing well. I'm sorry to hear that! I hope things get better for you!
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Post by ohiotaylorswiftfan on Nov 5, 2022 23:47:08 GMT -5
I love anti-hero too! I think a lot of people can relate to that song and music video. How have you been doing? To be honest things have not been good at least not the last a couple of weeks. Appreciate you asking hope you’re doing well. I hope that you are feeling better soon JD.
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Post by JDMaleSwiftie on Nov 11, 2022 17:33:29 GMT -5
Appreciate the support means a lot. I’m at a place where I’m really working hard to function with the BPD I’ve even started opening up about it with my friends. It’s important that I don’t use the BPD or just mental health in general as an excuse to justify making bad decisions or engaging in bad behavior. The truth is mental health issues while they’re valid I can still make a decision I’m not going to allow it to dictate my behavior.
As a college student I have certain obligations as it relates to school, my church is very important as well and the friendships I’ve developed from within my church. I can’t just mistreat my friends or push them away, which unfortunately based off extensive research I’ve conducted is pretty popular among those that have borderline personality disorder. Lastly I’ve also got to allow the people in my life to still hold me accountable and not dwell in self pity. I’m not a victim I have certain challenges that I’ve got to deal with, but so does everyone.
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Post by JDMaleSwiftie on Nov 29, 2022 22:05:08 GMT -5
My therapist has me going back to my childhood to work through trauma, but I just feel like it’s pointless. I don’t want to be a victim because I’m not. I was never abused or anything like that. I was bullied for a few years, several loved ones have passed away, and there have been moments I’ve felt criticized or judged by people in my life. What is the big deal? What I just described is no different then what probably 99.9 percent of the human race has had to deal with. It just seems irrelevant to even go back to it my life hasn’t been bad. In some retrospects I’m very lucky.
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Post by Karma on Jan 21, 2023 12:36:57 GMT -5
I deal with depression and anxiety and take Sertraline(Zoloft) for it. The medication helps me a lot and I barely have a depressive episode or severe anxiety.
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